Sorry I haven't written anything for a while. We've been busy setting things up for the wedding and traveling. I'm home now, but that hasn't made anything easier. We just found out that we're about $1000 short of what we need for the rest of the wedding and for rent next month. There's no way we can make it up right now and nothing we can do about it. I'm so frustrated that I just want to cry but that wouldn't help.
I pray that God works something out... I think this is the worst situation I've ever been in.
On top of that my sister's dress doesn't fit because she gained 15 pounds since we bought it. We're trying our best to get it fixed but there's not a lot we can do.
We're trying to see if there is something we can do to fix these problems but there doesn't seem to be anything at all...
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
A whole post without talking about the wedding...is that even possible? No...
I had my second voice lesson yesterday with Craig Johnson. For those of you who don't know, Craig is a voice teacher here at PLNU, and he's amazing! He told me yesterday that I should audition for the San Diego Opera. He really believes that I can make it and is helping me with a few audition pieces this week. I have to have two arias to sing for the first wave. I am supposed to send in a recording of the arias by July 1st. If I get a call back then I have to sing the arias at a live audition. The chorus parts pays $35/hour!!! I hope that I make it! Craig seems very confident that I have a fighting chance. It's not that I doubt my talent, but I've never had anyone think of me so highly before. I've never had anyone push me to do something of this stature before, I mean, besides my dad. He was the one that taught me how to sing in the first place.
I remember when I was a little girl, I would sing at my church districts' vocal competitions for children. I started when I was about 7 or 8 and I competed until I was 12. I remember working on my songs in my room, singing into a little karaoke machine to hear myself better. My dad would come into my room and show how to hold myself properly and how to use my stomach to control my voice, instead of my chest. He taught me how to breath properly when singing, and even how to do a little vibrato. I owe everything I know up to this point to my dad. He really pushed me to be the best that I could be.
I never took vocal lessons from a professional, but Craig says that he thinks that was best. My dad was doing a great job by himself, and it was probably a good thing that I didn't take lessons because they could have ruined what my dad had already taught me. I kind of wish that I had more vocal training as a child.
I almost got a career as an actor/singer. I auditioned for an acting school when I was about 13. They really liked me and wanted to see more, but that required my parents to send me to an acting school, which was too expensive for them at the time. It was really hard for me to accept that I couldn't go, but in the end I probably wouldn't have worked on my drawing/painting skills if I had gone to acting school. I probably wouldn't have gotten involved in my high school's theater department the way I did. I would have been on stage instead of back stage working on props and set design.
As I look back on my life there are so many times where I could have chosen to do one thing or another, and I think of how much my life would have changed if I had chosen to do anything else other that what I have done. Would I be at Point Loma, if in college at all? Would I be singing? Would I be an artist? What if I had gone to law school like my mother wanted? What if I had joined the military like I had thought about? What if I had auditioned for American Idol when it first came out? In which direction would my life have turned had I chosen to go to Central Christian College of the Bible and sought a degree in Christian Family Therapy?
God really has everything under control. I believe that he orchestrated all the aspects of my life to bring me to this point, to be who I am today. There is not one event that happened to me that God did not put into place. It just goes to show that Jeremiah 29:11 is true: "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
I think that has become my life verse. I remember sitting at my church as a teen and having a friend pray over me. I was really depressed and needed help. This friend prophesied over me and told me this verse. They said that God had everything under control and that I shouldn't worry.
That aspect right there is what I've always found really hard: worry. I can never not worry. I feel that if I'm not worried about a situation or a problem then I'm not doing enough and I'll just forget about it. I have never been able to just get things done without worrying a little bit. It's my biggest area of work in my life. Of course, with that struggle comes the struggle of trust. It's really hard for me to trust that people are going to do what they say they are going to do, and that includes God. In fact, I have to most trouble trusting God. It's stupid, and completely useless to think that I could do things better than He can, or that I could get things done faster than he can. I mean.....he's God! But, I persist and struggle, and go into multiple nervous breakdowns before I actually surrender situations to God....when will I just learn?
Anyway, now that I've just written my autobiography for you, I guess it's safe to say that I have nothing else to say today. I probably will later, but whatever. I love you guys!
ONLY TWELVE DAYS LEFT!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!
Peace out...Cara
I remember when I was a little girl, I would sing at my church districts' vocal competitions for children. I started when I was about 7 or 8 and I competed until I was 12. I remember working on my songs in my room, singing into a little karaoke machine to hear myself better. My dad would come into my room and show how to hold myself properly and how to use my stomach to control my voice, instead of my chest. He taught me how to breath properly when singing, and even how to do a little vibrato. I owe everything I know up to this point to my dad. He really pushed me to be the best that I could be.
I never took vocal lessons from a professional, but Craig says that he thinks that was best. My dad was doing a great job by himself, and it was probably a good thing that I didn't take lessons because they could have ruined what my dad had already taught me. I kind of wish that I had more vocal training as a child.
I almost got a career as an actor/singer. I auditioned for an acting school when I was about 13. They really liked me and wanted to see more, but that required my parents to send me to an acting school, which was too expensive for them at the time. It was really hard for me to accept that I couldn't go, but in the end I probably wouldn't have worked on my drawing/painting skills if I had gone to acting school. I probably wouldn't have gotten involved in my high school's theater department the way I did. I would have been on stage instead of back stage working on props and set design.
As I look back on my life there are so many times where I could have chosen to do one thing or another, and I think of how much my life would have changed if I had chosen to do anything else other that what I have done. Would I be at Point Loma, if in college at all? Would I be singing? Would I be an artist? What if I had gone to law school like my mother wanted? What if I had joined the military like I had thought about? What if I had auditioned for American Idol when it first came out? In which direction would my life have turned had I chosen to go to Central Christian College of the Bible and sought a degree in Christian Family Therapy?
God really has everything under control. I believe that he orchestrated all the aspects of my life to bring me to this point, to be who I am today. There is not one event that happened to me that God did not put into place. It just goes to show that Jeremiah 29:11 is true: "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
I think that has become my life verse. I remember sitting at my church as a teen and having a friend pray over me. I was really depressed and needed help. This friend prophesied over me and told me this verse. They said that God had everything under control and that I shouldn't worry.
That aspect right there is what I've always found really hard: worry. I can never not worry. I feel that if I'm not worried about a situation or a problem then I'm not doing enough and I'll just forget about it. I have never been able to just get things done without worrying a little bit. It's my biggest area of work in my life. Of course, with that struggle comes the struggle of trust. It's really hard for me to trust that people are going to do what they say they are going to do, and that includes God. In fact, I have to most trouble trusting God. It's stupid, and completely useless to think that I could do things better than He can, or that I could get things done faster than he can. I mean.....he's God! But, I persist and struggle, and go into multiple nervous breakdowns before I actually surrender situations to God....when will I just learn?
Anyway, now that I've just written my autobiography for you, I guess it's safe to say that I have nothing else to say today. I probably will later, but whatever. I love you guys!
ONLY TWELVE DAYS LEFT!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!
Peace out...Cara
Monday, June 14, 2010
Nervous Break Down #3
....ya.. with just under two week left till the big day I'm really starting to get stressed. I'm not so worried about the wedding as I am about getting there. Mitch and I have one big problem after another standing in our way of getting up to northern California for the wedding. Either we have to pay just under $300 to fix my car, pay $300 for a rental car, $300 for a train ticket (one way), or $300 each for a flight (one way and if we bought the tickets last month).... so ya. We're going to have to fix the car anyway so we're most likely going to go with that option. My parents and my older brother really saved us this month. We didn't know how we were going to pay for gas to get home, but my brother send us some money so now we will be able to make it, and get groceries!!! YEAH! no more empty bellies!
That's the other thing we've been dealing with. Since Mitch hasn't gotten the word yet on whether he's gotten a job we've been very short on money. All of our money has gone to rent, gas, and food.... mean while I am running out of pants and other clothing items, Mitch needs new shoes, and we both need medical care.
I'm supposed to be working on the opera I am in, but I have had hardly any time to really take a good stab at it. I've been practicing my role, but that's about it. I really need to crack down on that. AHHH!!!
I also just sold my first item on eBay. Not that's it's anything exciting. It was a battery being sold for my boss. But he said I could keep 10% of the sale.... so I get like $5. lol....
anyway, that's all for now!
That's the other thing we've been dealing with. Since Mitch hasn't gotten the word yet on whether he's gotten a job we've been very short on money. All of our money has gone to rent, gas, and food.... mean while I am running out of pants and other clothing items, Mitch needs new shoes, and we both need medical care.
I'm supposed to be working on the opera I am in, but I have had hardly any time to really take a good stab at it. I've been practicing my role, but that's about it. I really need to crack down on that. AHHH!!!
I also just sold my first item on eBay. Not that's it's anything exciting. It was a battery being sold for my boss. But he said I could keep 10% of the sale.... so I get like $5. lol....
anyway, that's all for now!
Monday, June 7, 2010
19
so... just a little over 2 weeks left. i can't believe how close the wedding is! We just have to finalize a few things and then mitch and I will be husband and wife!! omg!!
I just can't wait! This is so exciting!!!
I don't have much to say at this point. I mean, that really is all there is. I'm working, spending lots of money on gas to drive mitch back and forth from where he's staying, organizing the rest of the wedding.... ya.. that's pretty much my life right now.
till next time!
Cara
I just can't wait! This is so exciting!!!
I don't have much to say at this point. I mean, that really is all there is. I'm working, spending lots of money on gas to drive mitch back and forth from where he's staying, organizing the rest of the wedding.... ya.. that's pretty much my life right now.
till next time!
Cara
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
24 days later....
... ya... I'm not sure what to write now. I've been so focused on work that I haven't been able to do much for the wedding. We're almost out of money so there aren't going to be a lot of the stuff that we want at the wedding. Fortunately the good Lord gave me my mother. She's really been there for me through all of this. She says "what ever happens it's your wedding... you're going to have a wedding." She just bought our champagne flutes, which is so releaving. Mitch and I were looking at flute sets that were over $100! She bought them for really cheap. I haven't looked at them yet, but I trust my mom. I know she found something wonderful. Now we just need to buy champagne. Hmm... COSTCO!!! Costco has seriously become by best friend. You can find almost everything there.
Bare with me while I write out what I still need for this up-coming ho-rah. (**Already Bought)
Flowers = $75
Cake materials = $50-75
Champagne = $10-20 / bottle
Appetizers = $50-100
**Wedding Bells Favors = $21
Gifts = $100
Decorations = $50-100
Unity Ceremony Sand and Containters = $20
Bbuy the programs [although I'm not sure we need them with so few attending] = $25
Total = $400 - $600
AHHH!!! and I have about $100 total right now. Ya.. talk about frustrating.
Bare with me while I write out what I still need for this up-coming ho-rah. (**Already Bought)
Flowers = $75
Cake materials = $50-75
Champagne = $10-20 / bottle
Appetizers = $50-100
**Wedding Bells Favors = $21
Gifts = $100
Decorations = $50-100
Unity Ceremony Sand and Containters = $20
Bbuy the programs [although I'm not sure we need them with so few attending] = $25
Total = $400 - $600
AHHH!!! and I have about $100 total right now. Ya.. talk about frustrating.
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